scribbles and doodles

FOR YOU BABY.

2011-09-18T01:29:00.003+08:00

playing in my head: Narsha - I'm In Love

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND

2011-07-09T10:58:00.001+08:00

I haven't been posting anything recently.

It's weird cos now that i have her, i usually post nearly everyday talking about her.

There's a reason for that.

It's because she's been with me for the past whole week.

Literally.

My poor baby had to run away from home because of me.

Her parents didn't approve of the fact that i'm a girl and i have something going on with their daughter and also the fact that i modify cars which apparently makes me a troublemaker by default.

I don't care if they wanna think that way about me.

I know myself and i know my capabilities.

But my poor poor baby has to bear the consequences of it.

I'm sorry that because of me, you had to run from the comfort of your home.

But i'm literally jumping over the moon because of that as well.

Because now, we get to be with each other 24/7 when you're staying with me. :)

Everything i could ever want.

Now i never have to leave your side my angel.

Baby cooking dinner on our first day. <3

Baby is busy busy busy!

Japanese curry rice!! My favourite!! :D

Our couple keychains that we won playing the Claw machine.

Our matching BBs.

Baby's gift to me on 7.7.2011. <3

I'll never forget our anniversary.

7.7.2011, 12.04am

A day full with the number 7s.

I love you baby.

I know i didn't have an anniversary gift in return, but believe me, i have something planned out. :)

I dunno why people keep trying to break us apart.

Like when your sister questioned whether you really loved me.

And that you were just using me as a rebound to get over him.

I have to admit, somewhere deep inside me, i actually thought about it.

But i didn't wanna say it out loud.

I trust you.

And i trust that you won't betray that trust.

Even if you were using me to get over him, i'll understand.

You told me you need someone to get over your exes.

I'll be glad to just be that someone.

Yesterday you said those 3 words to me.

My heart jumped when you did.

But i dunno if they were real or a slip of tongue like the last time.

But at that moment, you made my heart soar straight to heaven.

Baby girl, you are my life now.

I love you more than anything.

I think i love you more than i ever loved her.

Because last time, the thought of losing her brought me to tears.

But you, the thought of losing you brings me to my knees.

I don't think i can live without you.

If something took you away today, i don't think i have the will to survive anymore.

You are the air that i breathe, the sun that makes me warm.

You may be imperfect to yourself, but in my eyes, your imperfections are what made you perfect for me.

Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. :)

playing in my head: Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

MY HEART HAS ONLY ROOM FOR ONE: YOU.

2011-07-01T02:29:00.004+08:00

Reading your recent post about jealousy makes me a bit sad.

Not because of those girls, but it's cos you feel hurt and jealous whenever they BBM me.

Baby, i dunno what it would take to convince you that there will be NOTHING between me and them.

They may be able to talk to me, but you are the only one that can make my heart skip a beat.

But i guess you're not the only one with that sort of feelings.

I'm also guilty in the first degree on that.

I don't know why, but i can't help feeling jealous about every single ex of yours.

Your first, the one you cut yourself over, C and even him.

I dunno why, but it seems that every single one of them has affected you in a strong way.

Even him.

I dunno but i guess i feel like i'm playing second fiddle?

I hate the fact that you treated him like gold eventhough he treated you so badly.

I hate that no matter what he told you, you listened to him.

You listened to every piece of shit from him and yet when i advise you on small things, you seem to retort back at me.

I guess i just hate the fact that it seems like a bastard like him got more respect from you than me.

I know, that's you being you and i love that you can be yourself around me.

But i suppose it's because it feels a little like deja vu because K did the same to me.

Maybe i think too much.

Maybe this is me being too sensitive.

But regardless of what happens, i still love you.

You're the only one for me and i'll accept everything about you no matter what.
Your past is your past.
And there it will stay.
All i want is to create a future for both of us.
Because i want to grow old with you. :)

"I don't love you because I need you.

I need you because I love you."

playing in my head: Kahi - Gift

IN MY HEART, THERE'S ONLY ONE PERSON. YOU.

2011-06-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Today, you made me super happy like you always do.

I dunno how else to say this but, i love being in bed with you.

You're like my drug that i crave for every moment i spend awake.

I kinda pushed it a little far with you today but i don't regret it.

I'm only worried that i might have accidentally hurt you because i lost control for a bit. :(

I love you for forgiving me even when i know i should have stopped.

And i loved watching you walk around Sunway Pyramid with my shirt on.

I dunno why but there's a weird "kick" i get out of watching you wear my clothes.

Especially that oversized shirt. ;)

Maybe the animal instinct in me in happy watching my mate walk around marked by me?

I dunno, but whatever it is, i have that weird fetish.

This was my most comfortable nap in a long while.

Maybe because this time i was actually spooning you to sleep knowing that the first thing i see or hear when i wake up is you.

I wish we could do that more but your mum is holding you back from seeing me.

But i don't care baby girl.

After all this time, i've finally found my angel and i'm not letting her go.

I don't care what your parents say, i'm gonna continue loving you and making you happy because you deserve that happiness.

If your parents want to kick you out then so be it.

I will gladly take you in with open arms.

YOU are my world now and i'm not giving you up.

Not to anyone, even God.

I'll fight to the death for you, now and forever, i'll never stop fighting.

Because i love you.

I'm ready to face your parents the minute they drag this issue up.

I'm ready to prove my worth to your parents.

That i can love you more than any ordinary guy can.

That i can make you the happiest girl out there.

That i can be your "man".

And baby, i'm sorry to make you feel jealous over her.

She's my past and will stay as my past.

There is nothing between me and her anymore and there never will be.

I only have eyes for one girl and that girl is you.

I give you my promise on that.

I love you Julie Tan.

You're the girl of my dreams. <3

playing in my head: SNSD - Into The New World

A WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE

2011-06-27T18:55:00.003+08:00

Compilation of our memories since Day 1. :)

The ones in red are our extremely special days.

1.6.2011, WEDNESDAY.
- We met as friends for the first time and played Tekken in Summit. Our first LONG talk together and the beginning of something special. :) I remember we felt quite awkward when we first met and i kept losing to you with Tekken. When we went to yamcha at Old Town, something told me to pour my story out to you and i did. I dunno why because i don't usually tell this to anyone, especially girls. You in turn, told me about everything that happened between you and him. And all the horrid lies that were told to you were brought into the light. I don't think i had any feelings for you then, but i definitely became friends with you when i didn't want to last time because of certain reasons.

7.6.2011, TUESDAY
- The day i went to your house for the first time. We were supposed to watch Inception but we ended up talking. I was actually quite shy and i didn't know what to talk to you about. And i also remember drawing a picture of you then to give to you as a present. I think i drew that as a promise to make you smile. I can't remember why anymore but i remember panicking when i tried to draw you because i didn't want to make a beauty like you look horrible in my artwork. Regardless, we had our awkward moment sitting far away from each other and making small talk. But the small talk lead us on to talking for hours. It's funny how you can click with someone with a personality so different from yours. I suppose you can call it an "instant connection". You cooked me Karage for dinner that night. I'm not lying when i say this, but it was super delicious. To be honest, i wished i could taste your Katsu curry that you were supposed to cook initially but i suppose you're a little busy for that. Owh well. Maybe next time. :) That night was the night that he hurt you with his words and i talked to you on the phone for a long time that night. He said some pretty mean things to you that night and it pissed me off to no end. I wanted so badly to hug you and tell you everything was gonna be alright. It struck me that night that i might have feelings for you because i had a sudden urge to protect you from anything that might hurt you in anyway. I only felt that way twice before. Once towards my younger brother and another towards K. But suddenly i felt it for the third time ever that night. I knew i was falling slowly but surely, in love with you.

8.6.2011, WEDNESDAY
- Woke up early morning cos you called me because you needed board for your assignment that was due at 8am but the shops weren't open until 10am. You sounded so worried and so scared that my heart went out to you straight away. Honestly, i don't usually bother getting up before 12pm even if my friend desperately needs my help. I only do that for very select people that i really care about. But something told me to help you in my heart. Drove over to Taylors to pass them to you and i remember seeing the relief on your face when you saw the boards. I was seriously happy i could help you at that time. :) I think i fetched you home after your presentation but i'm not too sure. XD

9.6.2011, THURSDAY
- Our first date? I was actually quite nervous to be honest. I even went through thinking of what to wear and whether to look formal or casual when going out with you. Yeah, i wanted to make a very good first impression on you. When i picked you up, you seriously made me gulp. You are so damn hot and i was about to go on a date with you. Pressure kaw kaw weih. We went to Pyramid and we had Zhia's Kitchen for lunch. I remember you only had soup cos you had your toothache. So poor thing. I wanted to take you to somewhere better for our first lunch but i didn't want you to inflame your toothache. Then we went to the arcade meet your friend and play Tekken for a bit. I remember one of the best moments then was that when i insisted going to buy the tokens, you pulled my hand and i sorta, accidentally put my arm around your waist for the first time. I was feeling quite happy to be honest. And a bit smug since i knew that the friend we met had a thing for you for a while but the one who had their arm around you was me. *evil* After that it was Subang Avenue for rollerblading. I cannot skate for NUTS. I literally had to move around grabbing every damn thing in my sight. And even then, i had to hold on to the friggin bars at the end of the court for so long because i didn't dare to move. You went a few rounds to warm up. And then when you were coming back from one round, you nearly crashed into the bar i was leaning against. But i managed to catch/hug you. I was feeling quite elated then. After that, you held my hand as we went one round around the court but i fell until my tailbone hurt to death. But that was also the first time we held hands and we had such a happy dinner at Face to Face. *bubble!* Stayed with you till late that night to help you finish your assignment. Yes, i lvoe helping you do it. I dunno why. And i remember you were so stressed about it. So i kissed you on the top of your head for the first time in hopes that it would make you feel better. I THINK i did. I'm not sure. XD

10.6.2011, FRIDAY
- Got you bright and early to send you to college to send in your work. Followed you to Jaya One cos you had a hair appointment. You came over to my house for the first time cos that night we went for the party. Oh how i remember how much we PDA-ed at the party. But i loved every second of it. I want people to know we're so in love with each other and i want the world to know that you're mine. I know it sound selfish and maybe even conceited of me, but i like showing people that i can make you happy. And the first night i slept over at your house. :)

11.6.2011, SATURDAY
- Our first date alone together. We went to Sg. Wang and Times Square. You told me how he used to control your dressing and that you gave up wearing a lot of clothes you used to like for him. Baby, i don't care what you wear as long as it doesn't affect who you are. Cos i wanna be with the girl i love regardless of what she wears. I'll have to admit, i prefer the matured look on you but i don't want you to change what you like for me. I want you to be yourself. I was so happy that i got you your Omnom because i didn't pay for any of your shopping and honestly i felt quite bad. :) That was the day that was the first time we held hands for so long and also the first time you came over to my house for a nap. I love holding you to sleep because i know that you went to sleep happy and that when you woke up, i can continue making you happy. :D We were together for 38 hours straight that day baby girl. ♥ This was also the day i asked you to be mine but you asked me to wait. At first i didn't understand why and i thought it'd be history repeating itself again. Turns out it's not and yes, i'm willing to wait for you baby.

12.6.2011. SUNDAY
- Came over to your house to hang out. Went to One Utama and got you Mr. Smiley belly ring as well as rings to replace the ones your ex bought for you. Yes, i was jealous of looking at all those memories of you and your ex had. I don't ask you to forget them or even destroy them. But i want you to put them behind you because i want to create new and happier memories of you and i. I want to be your last love so that you never get hurt ever again. You followed me down to Subang that night and we played Monopoly with the gang. I love that you can fit in so well with my bunch of friends. But i'm sorry that i seem so unfriendly towards yours. I'm not very good at socializing when it comes to new people so it'll take me awhile to get used to your friends. I hope you can understand that.

13.6.2011, MONDAY
- Again, went over to your house to hang out and we went and eat that fried chicken thing in One Utama. Even having a simple lunch with you like that made me so happy. :) Went to see you at work that night with Momo for dinner. You looked so cute in your schoolgirl outfit and i couldn't keep my eyes off you the whole night. Sent you home after that i think.

14.6.2011, TUESDAY
- Saw you in the morning to chill at your house before coming back to Subang while you napped. Went back at night to see you at work though. :)

15.6.2011, WEDNESDAY
- EPIC day. The day you met K for the first time. Salmon balls? But honestly i was quite worried about that would happen once you both met each other. Turns out i worried for nothing. I didn't realize how K didn't wanna talk to new people especially girls until now. Someone got a little jealous but i like it when you get jealous. You're sho cute when you do so. ;) The first picture i took with you with your schoolgirl uniform. Wanted to hug you so bad but i thought the rules were that we couldn't touch the maids, so i didn't dare.

16.6.2011, THURSDAY
- I honestly can't remember what happened on this day. O_O

17.6.2011, FRIDAY
- Brought you to my house for dunno what reason, but we had our first...."session" then. ♥ We came up with the term "Julie-drunk". Yes baby, you turn me on so much with just a simple touch that i literally feel myself getting drunk on you. My control slips like crazy everytime you tease me. But i didn't dare do anything further because i didn't want you to think all i wanted was sex. You told me once before you preferred dating girls because we're not so demanding when it comes to that. You have no idea how much i want you baby. I told you before, my libido is generally like a guy's. I want it day and night but i also respect you and i'll wait for you to make the first move. That night you joined me for TT at Damansara. Goddamn. What you were wearing made my eyes pop and my jaw drop. I bet you every guy at the table was inwardly drooling when they saw you. But again, i felt so damned smug that the hand that was holding yours wasn't theirs. It was mine. :) Then you followed me to Subang for a short while for yamcha just so we could spend more time together. :)

18.6.2011, SATURDAY
- Brought you to experience your first snow wash with Wasabi. You're just so extremely adorable when you get excited. You even took pictures of the snow wash. I'm glad that you enjoyed the experience baby. :) Sent you home after a nap in my house cos you needed to work. Went and sleptover at your place after you finished work.

19.6.2011, SUNDAY
- We went to KL cos your sis needed to do her hair but we went kai kai around KL anyway. Spent the whole day exploring KL and talking until your sis finished with her hair. I usually hate walking. Especially in the hot sun. But the weather that day was nice and cloudy and i WANTED to walk with you. It was an odd feeling but yeah, i love holding your hand in public and letting the world know that we're just two people in love regardless of our gender. We bought a bloody huge pizza back and your relatives came over for dinner. I like having family dinners with your family. They're such nice people. Especially your oldest aunty. :D But that night i made you worry when i didn't reply your BBM cos i fell asleep while we were having a serious talk. I'm sorry i made you worry babe, i really am.

20.6.2011, MONDAY
- Went over to your place to hang out again. I asked you for our names in Japanese then. I wanted to make car stickers out of them to put on Wasabi. :) Then i went and visited you at work at night.

21.6.2011, TUESDAY
- You had a full day of work today. Accompanied you at the cafe and i got to send you home! :D It was the day i got "our" stickers on Wasabi.

Chantelle + Julie = ♥

22.6.2011, WEDNESDAY
- We had to drop your sister to some pageant thing and then send her back. Then it was the first time we....♥!! Baby, you drive me CRAZY. I love it when you tease me to breaking point. But i love being able to love you more. I love that i can make you feel good. I will always want to make you feel that way and more. Again, i hope you don't take this the wrong way, but i love doing it with you. It makes me happy to hear your sounds. You have no idea HOW happy. I wish we had more days like that. I know i sound....disturbing? But it's the truth. *blush* Went to eat pan mee after that and then went kai kai at Pyramid for Chatime. Sent you home to take a nap and then picked you up from Japanese class to go to Connaught Pasar Malam in Cheras. :) I love walking around with you and looking at random stuff at the pasar. And yes babe, i'm seriously gonna buy you leopard print lingerie one day if you keep daring me to do so. ;)

23.6.2011, THURSDAY
- You woke me up telling me you had a nightmare. My poor baby. Then you told me your story and i talked to you about it. If only i could hug you to sleep everynight. I'd chase all your nightmares away and kiss you to sleep. I'd make sure that you were safe and sound in my arms. You followed me that night for yamcha at Subang. It was the day we tempek Royston kaw kaw. XD

24.6.2011, FRIDAY
- Didn't see you at all until night because your mum was back. Then i got pissed off because of the idiot with the stupid =.=" face. I honestly dunno what his problem is. He hates lesbians? Then don't be friends with one. But noooooooo, he even tries to go after you. Yes, he's going after you baby. Which guy who has no interest will stalk a girl and comment stupid shit in every post? But the fucker is driving my anger up the wall. If he doesn't stop his nonsense soon, i'm gonna deal with him personally. And when i say deal, i mean fists and blood. I hate guys trying to "potong jalan" and if he's trying to do so with you, he just fucked with the wrong person. If he values his life, he'd be smart enough to stay away. I MEAN IT. Went for the party again and i ended up throwing up cos of the cheap tequila. But you stayed with me until i was alright. I dunno how you could watch me throw up mouthful over mouthful of vomit and still be willing to kiss me. You really are an angel. When we went back to my house, you made me feel A LOT better. I know i didn't ask for it, but you seemed to know what to do to sober me up. ♥ Skyped with you until 6am and we talked so much that we didn't even wanna go to bed after that. I love hearing your cute voice. It's so freaking adorable!

25.6.2011, SATURDAY
- I went and played Lasertag in the morning. I miss you like crazy everytime i'm not with you but i'm with my friends having fun. It makes me feel guilty that you're not there having fun with me. But at least i got to go out with you after that and we went to Jaya One for some weird bazaar that i didn't really care about. I was just so happy that you were with me. Went to Tenshi for a very late lunch before dropping you home. Got you a pack of origami thingys which you folded for us. Baby, thank you so much! :)

Neko!

Oink!

26.6.2011, SUNDAY
- Got to see you early at the morning at work. Hung around after your work while you had your lunch which you didn't let me pay for. But buying Mokona for you made up for it. :D

Mokona next to Piru. :)

27.6.2011, TODAY
- Went to see you at work again. I thought i wouldn't get to send you home cos your dad was coming to get you. But in the end you had to go to Jaya One to pick up a cheque. Our convo spouted this post. :)

I love our memories so far.

I don't want them to end here.

I love you baby Julie.

playing in my head: SNSD - Dear Mom

YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING

2011-06-27T03:13:00.001+08:00

It's been a while since I was last in love.

And it hurt like hell because it was never real for her.

Not only that, she was the first person i was in love with.

After her, I was so damn scared to fall in love again.

There were a few opportunities that i could have taken with other girls but i just couldn't because i was still traumatized by the last one.

I remember the hurt i felt when you rejected me.

I asked you why and you said you weren't sure why.

In fact, you didn't even want THIS kind of relationship.

Even after everything we went through together.

But as i was about to leave, you told me one line that kept me holding on.

"If you love me, you won't leave me."

I will never forget that line.

The line of liars.

And because of you, i hid my heart so deep that i couldn't even FEEL anything.

I didn't want to love again.

In fact, i hated the word love.

You made me believe that love was for fools who were blind and that there's never meant to be a fairytale in which both parties love each other so much.

You made me believe that one party will always love the other more.

Well.

I was wrong.

I've met my dream girl.

Under the weirdest circumstances.

It started in a weird way.

I met you with him.

And i didn't really take to your first impression on me.

So, i didn't even think of becoming friends with you.

All that i heard about you was told by him.

And like i told you, it wasn't nice things.

I thought you were such a horrible person.

One who plays with people's feelings and can split so easily from her current partner just to be with another.

I made assumptions.

And assumptions are the mother of all fuck ups.

(I'm sure you've heard this line from a certain someone's mouth before, and yes, it's not his. It's mine)

Anyway, as time flew past, the things he said, the things he did, and the things he claimed you said and did just didn't add up.

I mean, which girl would do everything for a guy and yet the guy can't trust the girl.

Every small mistake you made seemed like a big hoo hah to him.

It just felt so unfair.

Even when i questioned him about his seriousness, he told me he wasn't sure.

So i told him one line.

"One day, someone is gonna come along and sweep her off her feet. Don't regret it if that happens."

And he said he wouldn't.

In fact, he'd be happy if someone could make you happier than him.

What a load of bull.

I remember the 1st of June 2011.

The first day we spent time together.

It was just a very friendly outing and in fact, that's when i poured my story out to you about her.

And that's when you told me about him.

And when we came to realization about all the lies that he created.

But i remember at that time, i had no intentions towards you.

In fact, i thought i was still in love with her.

I dunno about your feelings for me at that time though.

Because it was only after that day that we started talking to each other a whole lot more.

So anyway, i remember i told you that i was meeting her again to sort of patch things up.

And you were so excited and curious to know what was gonna happen that you asked me to keep you updated on what happened after i met her.

But i know at that time, i sounded like i was still in love with her.

It took an angel to make me realize i wasn't anymore.

It took YOU.

I think i sorta developed a crush for you the day i went over to your house for the first time.

I was supposed to reach your house a little earlier but i was so blur that i overshot the turning and started heading towards Kepong.

I suppose you could consider that our first date.

It was so awkward to watch Inception in silence that i did what i did best.

Talk.

And i remember we ended up not watching the movie cos we were too busy talking nonsense the whole time.

And you cooked dinner for me after that. ♥

Then when i went back i remember meeting up with him to "talk".

At first, he told me he didn't mind if there was something between us and that if i pursued you.

But him being him, he didn't want to see you happy and changed his mind when he got home.

I remember that was the night he threatened to go to your house to slap you and i told him that if he did, i wouldn't care who the hell he was, that i'd beat the shit outta him if he tried laying a hand on you.

That night i called you and talked to you.

I could hear the hurt in your voice and i wanted to hug you so bad and tell you everything was going to be alright.

I think that was the night i started falling in love with you.

After that, i remember going to your house nearly everyday.

And i remember our first "date" out with your friends to Sunway Pyramid and then skating.

I'm so sorry for ruining the skating but not being able to skate.

I just wasn't born to skate but i knew how much you loved it so i gave it my best shot.

Which ended up with you covered in bruises and me with a broken Rolex.

But it was one of the best days of my life because it was the day that we held hands for the first time. :)

Fast forwarding to where we are now.

I dunno what to say.

There's only one line that can describe my feelings now and it's.....

"I love you."

And really, i do.

I know you can't say it now for your own reasons.

But this is how i feel for you.

Yes baby, i miss you so bad everyday now ever since your parents came back.

It's a missing so bad that it actually hurts my heart everytime i have to let go of your hand and watch your back slipping away from me as you walk into your house.

Everytime i'm alone and even when i'm with friends, your face and voice keeps replaying in my head.

And i find myself constantly wondering what you're doing, what you're feeling.

Do you miss me as much as i miss you?

I want to spend every waking hour with you.

I used to love sleeping because dreams were so much better than reality.

But the tables have turned.

And now my reality is my sweetest dream and i never wanna wake up from it.

I love that you want me to be around you all the time.

No you're not being selfish.

Because that's exactly the way i feel.

I love our PDA sessions, i love our funny talks, and i love our "flamed" moments.

I love us. ♥

I know that you're afraid that i might leave one day.

Baby, i'm bidding my time.

If we start a serious relationship, i'm not leaving.

I'll study locally just to be with you.

I'll give up my dream to be with you because you're worth the risk.

But if you want to go to Japan to fulfil your dream, i won't stop you.

All i want for you is to be happy.

And if that means for you to leave me one day to go to Japan, then i will gladly let you go at that time.

If you're happy then i'm happy. :)

I dunno if you think this feeling is love, but to me, it is.

I've never thought of giving up my dream for anyone before.

But i will for you.

"Because you're my new dream."

I proposed to you to ask you to be my girlfriend before.
And you asked me to wait.
I will baby girl.
I'll wait for you for as long as it takes.
Even if it means forever.

Because i can't live without you anymore, my angel.
And i love you Julie.

playing in my head: SNSD - Forever

MY ANGEL

2011-06-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

June 24th 2011.

Another day with you and another day that you make me realize how crazy in love I am in with you.

I couldn't get to see you for the whole day and it hurt like crazy.

It literally tore my heart for every second that i was away from you.

I didn't realize how much i need you in my life.

How much you mean to me.

Eventhough i knew i was going to be able to meet you that night, I still felt sick just waiting to see you.

You've become my drug and i crave for you everyday.

I finally got to see my angel at 10pm.

You have no idea how much i wanted to kiss you the minute i saw you.

But your mum was just standing there and i didn't dare even touch you.

I'm sorry baby for that one hour of finding parking and when you were craving your Chatime.

And i'm sorry that we didn't get to stay long at the party because of the shot i took that made me ill.

I'm sorry for having to make you watch me throw up that lousy cheap alcohol by the roadside.

But i'm not sorry for what happened after that.

Baby, yes, though i may deny it, though i may say i'm in control, you turn me on like crazy.

Everytime i'm near you, i can't keep my hands off you.

You drive me wild. And i love you for that.

But it's not just that part that i love about you.

I love skyping with you baby girl.

The sound of your voice is better than any sound i've ever heard of in this world.

I love your silly faces, i love hearing your funny ideas, i love listening to your dreams.

You, by far, are the most interesting and intriguing person i've ever met and i never want to let you go baby girl.

Our Q&A session was seriously interesting and i'm glad that we found out so much about each other in just those few hours.

Today you asked me, will I ever let you go?

Only if it pains you.

If not, i'm gonna keep making you happy everyday for the rest of your life.

My only sorrow is that i won't get to spend as much time with you now that your parents are back.

But you can be certain i will be with you every second that i can.

I can't live without you anymore.

You're like the air that i breathe.

You're the sun in my days and the moon in my nights.

I love you baby girl, don't ever doubt that.

You're my angel, you're my devil, you're my everything.

But above all, you're my Julie and i love you so so much.

My everything.

Thank you for the Neko baby. <3

playing in my head: Afterschool - Play Your Love

JUST THE WAY YOU ARE

2011-06-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

It's only been exactly 2 weeks and 3 days since we've started our relationship.

But you have no idea how much i've fallen in love with you baby.

22nd June 2011.

I will never forget this date baby.

It's a day that i will remember us sharing something so special and so full of love.

You once told me you never wanted to show this side of you,

and yet, you showed it to me.

You thought that i would change my perception of you by doing so.

Well baby, you're wrong.

I'm more in love with you than ever.

You made me feel like the luckiest person alive to end up with an angel like you.

You make my heart beat like crazy everytime you say my name.

I love that you have an angel's halo and a devil's tail.

I'll never tire of you, i'll never stop craving you.

I honestly dunno what you see in this old dinosaur but baby,

I'll love you for as long as this heart still beats.

And baby, i wish for more days like this.

Not for what we did, but for the love we shared.

My heart has never soared this high before.

I never believed in true love.

I never believed in fairytales.

But baby, you're proving me wrong.

You're showing me a world that i'd never dreamt would be real.

I love you Juliana Tan May Lee.

And i'll wait for you, forever.

playing in my head: Narsha - I'm In Love

I'M SMILING AGAIN

2011-06-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

It's only been two weeks since we started to really get to know each other.

But Julie, I'm sure about my feelings for you.

I told you once before that I never felt a love as strong as the one before, but I'll say it to you today that I'm feeling that love again.

Only this time, it's you.

I know you don't believe in forever, but I'm gonna show you forever DOES exist when you're with me.

I know you've been hurt before by so many that have left, but I promise to never hurt you or make you cry even if it kills me.

You once asked me this:

"What do you mean by 'Brain is telling me to relock the box'"

I'll tell you now.

After the last heartbreak, I vowed to myself to lock my heart in a steel box, hide it at the bottom of the sea and hide away the key forever.
This is the first time I'm gonna ever break a vow.

I'm gonna give you the key.

And I'm going to wait for you to open that box.

Because you're worth it.

Our first picture together. I hope there will be more in the future. :)

Thank you for the pig baby!

playing in my head: Kahi - Gift

UNEXPECTED, UNEXPLAINABLE, UNDENIABLE

2011-06-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

Ask me whether I was over K a few months back and i'd probably tell you i wasn't ready to let go of her memory. In fact, if you asked me what she was to me, i'd call her my angel.

And how i cursed and swore at God when things never worked out.

I blamed Him for taking away my "soulmate".

Little did i realize this, God takes away some things to make way for better things.

And oh-my-god, thank God you never said "yes" to me.

Otherwise i'd miss out meeting a REAL ANGEL.

Julie Tan, when i first met you, i didn't know what to think of you.

Especially when i met you in Tenshi. (I wasn't exactly used to the whole "kawaii" idea yet. XD )

And even after we did, we weren't exactly friends. More like acquaintances.

To be honest, at that time i didn't really like you because of all the lies i heard from one unreliable source of information (you know, i know lah).

But when i actually started REALLY speaking with the real you over BBM, i realized, this was not the girl i've been lied about to.

In fact, i was talking to my idea of a dream girl.

You are the sweetest, most caring, most understanding girl i've ever come across.

Oh and you're also so damned hawt. *blush*

We've only spent time together for one week.

But i'm sure of it.

I'm sure of my feelings.

I love you, Juliana Tan May Lee.

I remember the time where you jokingly asked to give us a shot.

Well, i'm gonna ask you for real now.

Will you stay by my side as my girlfriend?

I know it's a little fast but i'll wait for you because you're worth the wait.

I love you.

An angel sent from God. <3

Poor Ohmnom. Looks like you. Hee!

My sleeping angel. <3

playing in my head: SNSD - Star Star Star

MELAKA ROUND.....I FORGOT.

2011-05-20T03:50:00.000+08:00

So this time i went to Melaka for......God knows how many times i've been to Melaka.

Anyway, i brought Rachel along with me this time.

Why we went?

For fun.

LOL. Anyway, enjoy the pictures! :)

Her first time messing around with a DSLR.

Xiao Lan got to be the target of her first clear shot.

And what must we eat in Melaka for breakfast?

Chicken Rice Balls.

And not just any one.

We managed to get to eat at the best tasting one, which is a tiny corner shop at the end of Jonker Street.

Candid picture #1

Candid picture #2

YUMMEH!

I can eat 20 of these delicious rice balls easily. Seriously.

Jalan-jalan time along Jonker.

And then we found this park that i've never bothered to go into before.

We saw some weird statues there and decided to go exploring.

Rachel's motor damn scary. >___<

Bad influence to fishes. :S

Random photography.

Spotted this really cute Mercedes coupé along Jonker.

Ice cream shaped like eggs!
Orange (Assam flavour) - Rachel
White (Erm....) - Mine

Somebody is having a hard time eating the "egg".

After taking a walk through Jonker, we hit the road opposite the old church for Cendol!

The stuff is delish!

Advertisement for Malaccan Cendol.

Some people are just too rich. LOL

Fountain........yeah.

I kena paparazzi by SOMEONE.

So cute. :D

Headed out to A'Famosa after that.

Decided to take a nice long walk and smoke at the same time.

A'Famosa!

Tries to climb.....

.....ends up sitting on it.

Commercial voice, "Use Pantene for smoother....."

Continued commercial,"......and silkier hair, always."

Emo Nemo.

I think my ancestors were blowfish.

Candid picture #3

Rachel decides to pretend the train is after her.

Then runs off to sunbathe on a cannon. Stylo la.

This shot seriously doesn't look like Melaka.
Looks more like a beach side.

No boobs to grab?
Grab a cow's eyeballs.

Candid picture #4

The view from the sky....thingy that we sat on.

To be honest, i've never been on this ship.
Wonder what's on it......

Then we got bored and headed to Dataran Pahlawan's Oldtown for smokes and chit chat.

Yes, Melaka is THIS boring.

After that we watched Big Momma to pass the time.

And also to rest.

And hide from the sun.

Chilled in that place until 5pm.

Then we went for Satay Celup!

YUMMEHHHHH!!

I'm getting hungry just LOOKING at this.

Candid picture #5

Bon appetit!

Candid picture #6

It's not as good as Capitol but still delicious. :)

It was a tiring trip but fun nonetheless.

I can't wait for the Penang trip!

Until then! :D

playing in my head: 4Minute - First

UPDATES UPDATES

2011-05-20T03:07:00.000+08:00

Yes.

It's been a bloody long time since I last blogged.

I've been so busy that I totally forgot about my online diary. LOL

Anyway, here's an update on what's been happening lately in life for me. I hope I don't bore you. :)

DIY respray to Darren's car! :D

And yeah, Baby Wasabi got into a bad accident by kissing Momo's Ariel's ass.
Bloody Savvy.

Got a part time job with Lok and we spent our days watching Youtube.

AQ Model Search.

Got Baby Wasabi new eyes since his old ones were...well, old.

Pink neon! :D

Went clubbing at a new club in KL, Neutral.

Wrapped my BB with Narsha baby's photo. <3

Customed the front to be a full picture. :D

Scribbled Auto Garage's name in Klang Jusco. :D

Alan got a new X3 and new BBS rims!

New Kpop CDs! 4Minute and SNSD!

Got a poster along with 4Minute's new "Left" album.

Watched Fast 5 and it was FAWESOME!

Handmade mummy a mother's day present. Love you lots mum. :)

Completed my full Narsha vinyls and added on lots of tinting.

Got another tattoo of the word "Strength" in Kanji.

That's all for now readers!

Tune in for more. :D

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls ft. K. Will - Sign (Acoustic)

SHORT UPDATE

2011-03-15T01:59:00.000+08:00

My new ambigram of my name and Nareusya's.

Sigh.

playing in my head: Secret - I Want You Back

CLEAN UP TIME

2011-02-23T18:51:00.000+08:00

So the other day, my mum was cleaning up her stuff and look what she found in the safe?

My bloody old Sony that went missing for a year.

But i guess i kinda don't need it anymore seeing that i already got my DSLR.

So anyone interested in buying it? :P

RC cars are fuuuunnn.

I had my RX7 broken in.

Unfortunately, the side mirrors followed but what the heck, i don't need them anyway. :)

Skyline R34 & Mazda RX7

Then mum decided to be funny and bought me this tshirt. (-__-)"

Just because i'm shorter than her by 1cm.

And how i've missed this SOOO much!! <3

And today, i went and cleaned up Baby Wasabi with new oils and brakes. :)

Mobil 1 Gold is AWESOME!! :D

Alignment & Balancing.

YRV brakes? :)

And the latest design on Wasabi? :)

My Narsha!! <3

Hehehehe!! My body sticker will be finished this weekend!! :D

Keep checking back for updates!!

playing in my head: SNSD - Visual Dreams

I HOPE YOU DO

2011-02-23T01:36:00.001+08:00

G.Na - I'll Back Off So You Can Live Better

English Lyrics

I’ll back off so you can live

Say it directly, looking at me

Say it looking into my eyes

Did you just say you wanted to break up?

Did you want to end it with me?

(I Know) You probably got a lady

(I Know) You probably got sick of me

Even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live

That is all I can say

I’ll forget you so you can live better

So that you’ll be happy without me

The love that you tossed away, you can take it

Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all

Don’t even say you’re sorry

Don’t worry about me

Your lips that told me that you were going to leave

Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?

I need to stop you, the words don’t go out

And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me

(I know) I will really hate you

Even though you know everything

You! The reason I lived

You! Were all I wanted

You! It was me who only looked at you

Why? Why are you leaving?

Why? Why are you tossing me away?

If you were going to be like this

Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?

That day when we first met

I still remember it

The promise you made to me

That you will only care for me

That you will only protect me

That you will only love me

I believed your lies, I believed it

Did you really love me?

I’ll forget you so you can live better

Goodbye.

playing in my head: G.Na - I'll Back Off So You Can Live

OUT WITH THE OLD

2011-02-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

Finally had the time to change my wallet.

I just love Billabong!! <3

I love black leather.

playing in my head: G.Na - I'll Leave So You Can Live Better

BROWN EYED GIRLS

2011-02-13T18:18:00.000+08:00

Drew another piece but this time of the Brown Eyed Girls, my favourite Korean girl group.

Here's a bit of Wiki info on them: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brown_Eyed_Girls

If you have the time check out some of their more popular songs like Abracadabra and Sign.

Brown Eyed Girls - My favourite Korean girl group. <3
Left to right: Miryo, Ga-in, Jea, Narsha.

To zoom into the picture, click on it. :)

Until next time readers!!

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls - My Style

CELEBRATIONS

2011-02-12T01:17:00.001+08:00

So, the first few days of 2011's Chinese New Year just passed.

A lot of stuff has happened since and it's been awesome!! :D

Here's a quick run through of recent happenings,

Went to Ama's house in Shah Alam for "reunion dinner" and went again the next morning to for the open house to show everyone how the first son's daughter is respectful. Bah. But i had a good time catching up with Daddy anyway. :)

Lion Dance, anyone? :)

We also visited Alex that morning.

Mandarin oranges.

Fresh flowers to brighten the place.

And my favourite part of Chinese New Year. Angpow time!! <3

Don't you just love these red packets?

Got an early 21st birthday gift from mummy.

Thank you so much mummy!! :)

My Black Beauty.

And me and George have decided to invest a new hobby.

RC cars. :D

Left to right: Carbon R34, White R34, RX-7, S2000. Subaru.

Since it's not official Tamiya, it's called SubaPU!!

My baby RX-7!! <3

That's all the updates for now.

Thanks for reading!! :D

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls - Come Closer

WHY?

2011-02-08T19:04:00.000+08:00

IT'S HERE!! IT'S HERE!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! <3

4Minute's New Japanese Single, Why.

playing in my head: 4Minute - Why

MY NEW LOVE

2011-02-08T18:17:00.001+08:00

So after drawing the first picture of Narsha, I decided to continue my efforts and drew out two more pics.

This first one is of Hyuna from 4Minute. :)

Thank her for sparking my love for
Korean music with her song, "Change"
which was the first Korean song I heard.

And then, i decided to draw another one of Narsha, which was not as good as the first.

But i did it out of love nonetheless. :)

Narsha saranghae. <3

I'm probably gonna draw a couple more of them after this but for now, i'm gonna take a short rest. :D

Thanks for reading!!

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls and 4Minute - Once More, Korea!

FOR YOU, I WILL

2011-02-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i last picked up my pencil.

For a long time, i lost the inspiration to draw. To me, there was just no point in it.

Then just now, while i sat staring my laptop, as i hit the "Show the desktop" icon, it hit me.

I had to draw her.

The beautiful girl sitting on my desktop as my wallpaper.

Narsha Park Hyo-Jin.

So i dug out those long forgotten pencils.

Dragged out a piece of paper from a drawer i haven't touched in ages.

Then i chose a picture from the hundreds i have in my laptop and finally decided on this:

This is Narsha's look for "Sign".

Some initial rough sketches.

Detailing.

And touching up here and there.

This is my final work of Narsha.

It's been a long time since i've wanted to draw and Narsha's brought that spirit back into me.

My drawing skills are not all that good and quite frankly quite embarrassing at this stage.

BUT.

At this stage, for you Narsha, i'll do anything.

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls - Oasis

TAIWAN, PLEASE FUCK OFF

2011-02-04T02:32:00.000+08:00

So i was going through my usual dose of Korean stuff tonight and suddenly my friend tags me in a video.

Apparently the girl who's from Taiwan copied a popular song from my favourite Korean girl group, Brown Eyed Girls, called "Sign".

Here's the original version:

Brown Eyed Girls - Sign

And here are the idiots who copied them:

Naturally i got pissed.

Now to those of you out there who think this isn't such a big deal, think again.

It's like having your favourite football team beaten by Malaysia.

It's like how Blueberry copied the Blackberry.

It's just PATHETIC.

And it gets worse from here on out.

Because i found out that my all-time favourite song from the Brown Eyed Girls, Abracadabra, also got copied by another pathetic Taiwanese artist.

Here's the original version of Abracadabra:

And here's the idiot version called "Mocha Java" by 2 girls who call themselves "XOXO". Pathetic.

I WANT TO KILL YOU STUPID TAIWANESE BITCHES!!

And here's the worst to come.
To all T-ara fans, control yourself when you watch this.
So one of T-ara's most popular song is called "Bo Peep" and give a very sexy yet cute feeling to the viewers and quite frankly, gets a lot of drooling from the guys.

So here's the original for you to drool over first:

Hot ain't it? :P

Now, i present to you, Lotus Wang. A stupid 40 year old aunty who tried to copy this video.

*viewer discretion is advised*

You know what?

SCREW THE DISCRETION.

Fuck you and all your sad Taiwanese bitches!!
Don't try and copy Koreans!!
You want to be famous?
MAKE YOUR OWN DAMN SONG, NOT COPY IT.

Seriously, i thought only Malaysia would be the only country who would try and copy things. Looks like Taiwan has just hit a new all time LOW in my books. I NEVER ever wanna go there. Stupid buggers.

playing in my head: T-ara - Bo Peep Bo Peep

PHOTOSHOOTING SESSION

2011-02-03T19:53:00.001+08:00

So last week, me and George decided to go for a random photoshoot somewhere in Subang Jaya since his car's body and paint work was finished. Decided to do an afternoon shoot since both our camera lenses are shit at night and our cars look better in the daytime anyway.

So here's what our shoot looked like. Enjoy!! :)

Baby's GT-wing looks so gigantic here. But i love my new position of the 4Minute logo i have on my back!!
4Minute fighting!! :D

George's new Princess Angel.

And as always, there as the silly photos. Mainly of this fella. XD

Buy a condo, get a free Mark X.

The brother and sister. :)

I <3 BMW.

That's it for now. More updates soon!! Until then, Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone!! Have an awesome year of the rabbit to all my fellow 'Cina' people!! XD

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls - Sign

PHOTOSHOOT

2011-01-29T01:08:00.004+08:00

Had a random photoshoot with George kor today.

Here's a sneak peek of it.

I love my baby!

Will upload the rest once i'm done editing them!! :D

playing in my head: SNSD - Oh!

10 YEARS OLD AGAIN!!

2011-01-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

So today was a public holiday, Thaipusam and me and Sindhu decided to hit Cosmo Theme Park in Berjaya Times Square just for the heck of it.

HOT afternoon and it was even quite hot at night.

Our entrance ticket!!

We FINALLY got to ride on the DNA Mixer and MAN, it doesn't just mix up your DNA, it SCRAMBLES it!! But yeah, going on every ride at the front was just the bestest thing ever!! Everything from the front looks so much more different and definitely scarier!! :D

And guess what?

I got their t-shirt!! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!

AND POSTER!!

One of the best days ever!! :D

playing in my head: Girl's Generation - Hoot

DIGI K-POP CONCERT

2011-01-17T01:59:00.008+08:00

January 13th 2011, Thursday.

To anyone else, it was just another ordinary day.

But to 4Minute lovers, it was the day their idols would be coming to Malaysia for the very first time. I bet they were jumping up and down and screaming in excitement. Cause i sure was one of 'em.

I went with an ex-schoolmate, Hakim, who i recently got to know because we were both K-pop lovers.

( See? Korean pop DOES have its wonders. :D )

So we both decided to go early to get better seats in our section which was Gold class. We went there around 4-something pm just to beat the usual rush hour and to see whether there were any goodies on sale before the concert.

This was a life size board of 4Minute outside the stadium in the waiting area.

See the crowd? Some were waiting there since early morning. And from what i heard, some camped overnight. It's amazing what fans would do for their artists.

So while we were chilling and waiting for the concert to start, this guy from Era.fm approached a guy who was in front of us. He told the guy that if he just said a few words to a video camera, he'd win Platinum tickets which cost RM350 each!!

Guess what?

The guy said no.

HE DIDN'T WANT THE TICKETS!! What an IDIOT!!

So Hakim tried his luck and asked if he could do it. AND.... HE GOT IT!!

Suddenly, we were bumped up to Platinum class just like that!! I remember that his hands were still shaking when he handed me the tickets to hold.

WE GOT PLATINUM TICKETS!! *grins!!*

And the lucky part was, we actually managed to sell our old Gold class tickets away!! We were jumping for joy at our luck!!

So as you can guess, the concert was FUCKING AWESOME!!

Here are some snapshots of 4Minute's performances.

The girls. Beautiful as always.

Hyuna flashing the audience some skin. :P

4MINUTE HWAITING!!

And of course, we managed to get lots of stuff from the concert for a whole lot cheaper cos the guy who sold me my ticket dumped a whole lot of vouchers for me. So RM10 for each and every item bought from Rock Corner. And man, did we get lots of stuff!! :D

My collection of English cds are slowly being overtaken by....

My Kpop cds and goodies!! :D

4Minute's limited Diamond album which costs RM130++ online.

Guess how much we got it for?

ONLY RM35!!!

This was just getting better and better.

And since G.Na impressed me with her performance, i got her album to support her.

G.Na, i'm now officially part of your fan club!! :D

4MINUTE HWAITING!!

I managed to record a couple of their performances but i ain't uploading it here.

1. It'll take too long to upload cos the file is HUGE.

2. I'm selfish. Hee!! :P ( Next time, attend their concerts. )

But the sad part about them coming to Malaysia,....

I MISSED THEM WHEN THEY WERE AT PAVILION!! D:

BUT, that's ok. Girls, your loyal fan is waiting for your solo comeback stage to Malaysia. And THIS TIME, i'm gonna fight for a VIP seat!!

SARANGHAE 4MINUTE!! <3

playing in my head: G.Na - I'll Leave So You Can Live Better

YOU RAISE ME UP

2011-01-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

I was doing my usual thing of downloading a whole bunch of stuff regarding Narsha and then suddenly i came across this video of the Brown Eyed Girls singing a cover of Josh Groban's "You Raise Me Up". And hell, their voices are damn angelic!!

* I agree. Their pronunciation kinda sucks but DO YOU HEAR THOSE VOICES?!

Especially Narsha's!! <3>

playing in my head: Narsha - Mamma Mia

MY 3 ANGELS

2011-01-11T23:45:00.003+08:00

The 3 angels of my life!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!! <3

(I don't care who the fuck those 2 guys are.)

playing in my head: Narsha - I'm In Love

K-POP, K-POP, K-POP!!

2011-01-09T23:51:00.013+08:00

Yes, this post is about my recent K-pop addiction.

If you don't like it, you can fuck off. TQVM

Anyway, i'll start my explanation on how i fell in love with Korean music...

It all started with this girl:

Kim Hyun Ah

She's most well-known for her song "Change" because of it's dance moves and catchy beat. Anyway, i stumbled across her when i was still obsessed with Lady Gaga. Apparently, someone found the time to mash up Gaga's "Poker Face" with HyunA's "Change". Obviously it sounded weird but i was more curious about the song they mashed it up with. And boy, when i heard it, i was INSTANTLY HOOKED. HyunA is AMAZING!!

Here's some info about her:

Wikipedia link - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyuna

And here's the music video that got me hooked:

So anyway, after falling in love with the song, naturally i got more curious and went and researched about her and found out she's in a girl group called 4Minute.

4Minute

So after that, i got to hearing a few of their most popular songs which are "Muzik" and "Huh". 4Minute got it's name from being able to capture the audience attention and love for their music in just 4 minutes.

"Within four minutes we can hypnotize you," says 15 year-old Kwon So Hyun. "We'll surprise you when we show you what we've got."

Well, they caught MY attention in under 4 minutes. Soon, i got stuck on ALL their songs and wanted to hear more K-pop songs. Also, they consider their style to be "Candy Funk"

Here's some info about them:

Wikipedia link - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/4minute

And one of their most popular MV's and my personal favourite:

BUT, it doesn't stop there. Oh no no, this post is FAR from over.

Then i started listening to this group called Brown Eyed Girls. They're a lot older than the members of 4Minute and their image is a whole lot sexier and definitely more mature. I think some of you K-pop fans may have heard of their most popular song, Abracadabra.

Brown Eyed Girls

Anyway, here's some info on them if you're interested:

Wikipedia link - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brown_Eyed_Girls

And their most popular song, Abracadabra. Be prepared for a whole lot of SEXY:

Then up next, i got into the hip hop style of another quartet group, 2NE1. Their style is on another whole different level.

2NE1

This group is one word: T.A.L.E.N.T.E.D. Their leader, CL is an amazing singer, rapper and dancer. But the other members are really good too. If anything, check out their song "Can't Nobody" which is FAWESOME.

If you wanna know more about them:

Wikipedia link - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2NE1

And for their video, here's "Can't Nobody":

Here's one of my recent favourites:

KARA

I just recently started liking them so i don't know all that much about them. BUT, i highly recommend listening to their hit song, Lupin.

Wikipedia link - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kara_(band)

Kara's famous "Lupin" video:

As for shows, i recently got hooked onto this reality show called "Invincible Youth" which takes 7 female idols from different girl groups and throws them into a farming village to live the simple life. It's extremely funny and is worth every second of watching.

For you people who are interested in watching, here's a link you can visit to watch old and new episodes. :)

http://www.dailymotion.com/user/pikeko4/6

ENJOY!! :D

Now, because of the show i've fallen in love with this 3 girls:

Hyun Ah - 4Minute

Narsha - Brown Eyed Girls

Goo Hara - KARA

CL isn't from Invincible Youth but i admire like crazy anyway. :)

And because of my sudden addiction to K-pop, i started buying all their CDs, like i do whenever i go crazy over an artist. It's only a small collection but i get really happy looking at them. <3

I took my love for 4Minute to the next level though. As you can see below....

*Giant evil grin*

Also, it's kinda obvious but i have to mention my love for Narsha Park Hyo-Jin!!

She's extremely sexy, talented, cute, funny and she's my ANGEL!! You have no idea how BADLY i wanna meet her!!

She's everywhere in my world now.

My desktop.

Yes, i stalk Korean stars. <3

And even my blog. Hee!!

Did i mention she's on my phone too?

I'm obsessive but i can't help it!! ARGGHHH!!

AND AND AND!!

I'M GOING TO SEE 4MINUTE LIVE IN MALAYSIA!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw a poster for this. And of course i went ballistic and rushed to buy it!!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I can't wait to see them!!

I'll DEFINITELY update about them after i see them this Thursday!! :D

Until then, i hope you readers will see the beauty in Korean music as well.

Oh, happy 2011 everyone!! :3

playing in my head: KARA - Jumping

CARS + CHICKS = KLIM 2010

2011-01-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

It's been SOOOOOOOOO long since my last proper post. So this post is extra long to make up for it.

I visited the Kuala Lumpur International Motorshow with a George, Michelle and Jack. Everyone said not to bother because they were gonna feature local concept cars. So yeah, basically i expected the worse BUT i was blown away. It was awesome!!

This is gonna be a long, long post. So prepare yourselves readers!! :D

Our exclusive VIP tickets, complimentary of George's parents. Thanks aunty and uncle!! :D

So first up, one of my favourite concept cars,

Perodua Bezza.

This car concept is awesome but the front doors are gonna be tough to open in a tight parking spot. See for yourself.

See how big the front doors are?

Yeah, imagine them opening in a really tight spot. Not pretty.

But the back doors are extremely cool.

Our first chick of the day.

Perodua did really well in choosing the hotties. *winks!!*

This is a modified Perodua Alza.

I LOVE the front bodykit.

But i love the interior even more!!

SEE?!

Custom semi-buckets baby!!

This is how Perodua models their cars.

This is apparently a Perodua Myvi SE2.

And over here, a red Porshe Panamera for a tinting shop.

GT-R!!

*SLURPS!!*

The crowd for the day.

This here is Proton's very own Satria Neo but it's been tuned by R3.

And yes, you are looking at a turbocharged monster!!

Custom semibucket seats!!

So far nearly all of the cars featured have semibuckets as their stock seats. Which is bloody UNFAIR!! D:

The interior which was not bad at first, became super sad when i realized all the carbon was only 3M wrapping. How could you be so cheap?! :'(

The Proton Lekir concept which is not bad if you compare it with a Lotus.

I suspect they might have stolen the idea from there.....

See what i mean?

The Tuah here is not bad. I really love how they played with LED lights on this car and there's another surprise..

They even made the handles glow!!

Guess BMWs leave big impression with every design of theirs. :P

The back lights are extremely cool!!

Say goodbye to LEDs because here come DIGITAL lights!!

Proton's SUV, the Proton Lekiu. Not bad actually. Reminds me of an old Sportage. XD

One of my faves, a modded Proton Inspira - the Proton Jebat.

It's WIDEBODY!!! :O

I wouldn't mind driving one of these babies!!

Proton's model, cute minus the bloody full suit.

Proton Emas, quite cute actually.

Proton Emas in white.

The new facelifted Saga. -___-"

There are hell a lotta pics after this. I'll just let you enjoy them for now. :D

Oh DAMN. *nose bleeds*

That's it for now readers. Will be back with more news.

In the meantime,....

4MINUTE'S CONCERT IS THIS THURSDAY!!

playing in my head: f(x) - NU ABO

I'M REALLY IN LOVE

2011-01-08T00:06:00.004+08:00

"Narsha (BEG) - I'm In Love Lyrics"

**Romanization**

Jasireun jeongbalseot daereoteon
Geudae chuwahaedageo malragiga naegaen
Jeon eodweoweotdeon geojyeo
Meonjyeok yeolleyokaji animyeon
Geudael nopsigeulgeobwa
Geuchareulseulgeo deobeogeo
Jiwugaebael beogaejyeo

Gipeojimyeon sangjeopeuni georaneun saengakhae
Teutyeoumi ipseongeon sasirijima
Ganjeoran mameulreo gideohago baraetdeon
Sarangmi geudaerageomyeon mideoyeo

Ooh i’m in love, ooh i’ll fall in love
Deureopji anayeo geudaewa hamkkeramyeon
Saesangeun neomu areumdapjyeo

I thought i’ll never gonna fall in love
But i’m in love, cuz i wanna love you baby
Sasireuncheon beonsaetdae beoteonaemeomseo
Ureobeoteon geudaeparyeo cheoreom
Milreodeureo otdeonhareul jeonghae geudaelmal deoneollyeo

I can be your good lover, wanna be your AP lover
Saesanghae seokhajanghae beokhangyeojagam
Dwangeomeon gatalyeo geudae galbirimi
Make u never gonna leave me, eulsinhajinaneunayo
Geudae midapgaeyeo

Ahh i’m in love you’re my baby, ahh i’ll fall in love
Deureopjianayo geudaewa hamkkeramyeon
Saesangeun neomu areumdapjyeo

Ooh i’m in love, i’m so deep in love
Ooh i’ll fall in love, deureopjianayo geudaewa hamkkeramyeon
Saesangeun neomu areumdapjyeo
Geudaeneun neomu areumdapjyeo

*****

**English Translation**

Actually after our first meeting
Saying I like you
Isn’t something easy for me

If I don’t contact you first
I’m afraid of missing you
I type out the text, hesitate a bit, then delete it again
I keep repeating this process over and over

If my love for you gets any deeper
It will only result in getting hurting
My fears are filling my mind
This is the truth

Praying with all my heart, the person I’m yearning for
I believe that person is you

Woo… I’m in love
Woo… I’ll fall in love
Never feel any more fear
As long as I’m with you
The world is so beautiful

I thought I’m never gonna fall in love
But I’m in love, cause I wanna love you baby

Actually from the first time I met you
Somewhere deep in my heart
You crashed in like a strong wave
You’re the only thing in my mind all day
I can be your good lover
Wanna be your four-leafed clover
It feels like I’ve become the happiest woman in the world

Please you gotta believe me
Make you never gonna leave me
I won’t be suspicious, I’ll trust you

Ahhh… I’m in love
Ahhh… I’ll fall in love
Never feel any more fear
As long as I’m with you
The world is so beautiful

Woo… I’m in love (I’m so deep in love)
Woo… I’ll fall in love
Never feel any more fear
As long as I’m with you
The world is so beautiful

You are so beautiful

playing in my head: Narsha - Bbi Ri Bop A

I DON'T CARE

2010-12-23T18:34:00.003+08:00

I don't care-eh-eh-eh-eh.. <3

playing in my head: 2NE1 - Can't Nobody

CAN'T NOBODY

2010-12-10T15:28:00.002+08:00

Catchy as hell.

playing in my head: 2NE1 - Can't Nobody

ABRACADABRA

2010-11-23T10:53:00.002+08:00

Crap. I'm in love. O_O

playing in my head: Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra

GUESS THAT'S THE WAY IT GOES

2010-11-15T00:35:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday.

playing in my head: 4Minute - I My Me Mine

HMMM..

2010-11-12T01:21:00.002+08:00

There's something satisfactory about seeing this:

It makes me feel like everything i've done is worth it.

Every fight that i took to free myself was worth the pain.

All i have to do is look at my baby boy and know that by leaving,

i made myself happy.

By doing so, i made the people around me happier.

But the past couple of days have got me thinking.

Everytime i hear the mention of you, my heart still skips a beat and then i wonder,..

Can true love REALLY die?

I may tell people that i don't care.

I may not even act like i care.

But somewhere past the strong exterior,

Somewhere past the steel wall i've built up,

Still lies that tiny beating heart that longs for you.

If all it takes is time,

Then i'm gonna have to wait hell long for this one to heal.

But until that it truly ends,

This tiny beating heart is still beating for you.

Nothing is indeed, everything.

playing in my head: G.Na ft. HyunA - Together Forever

2010-11-08T15:47:00.004+08:00

Hello readers. It's been a while. Here's the latest updates on Baby Wasabi.

Gave him a blacktop and i also repaired that bloody crack in his hood.

Next i slapped on some M-Power vinyls.

And also a JS Racing GT-Wing.

Oh and not forgetting......

PINK fog lights. Yes, they're PINK. Goddamn.

Watch those damn heels girl!! That's my boy you're touching!! LOL!!

That's all for now. I've got more modification ideas but you guys will just have to wait for my budget. :P

sigh...

playing in my head: 4Minute - Who's Next?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES?

2010-11-02T03:35:00.003+08:00

Bumped into a ghost of my past today.

LYRICS

[Gayoon]It's going to be like nothing when time passes by
I will do fine like the time when you weren't there

But something strange happens, I keep looking for you
Even after erasing you I see you

[Jiyoon]Calmly I tried to forget about it like it was a lie
But I end up missing you more

[Gayoon]I'll be missing you every time
And I will pray for you every night

Even though I try to fool myself like it was nothing
My painful heart shakes without me knowing, Nothing is everything

[Hyunah]It was nothing
It was nothing, but the fact that I can't forget it is weird
I pray to meet you even for a little while
I wanna see you
I'm gonna miss you

[Sohyun]I must have liked you a lot, I keep thinking about you
[Jihyun]Many times in a day, I feel like I can cry

[Hyunah]When you were here with me I didn't know how special you were
I'm sorry for making you hurt so much

[Jiyoon]Confidently I tried to erase you like it was an usual thing
More I do that I miss you more

[Gayoon]I'll be missing you every time
And I will pray for you every night

Even though I try to fool myself like it was nothing
My painful heart shakes without me knowing, Nothing is everything

[Jiyoon] My love that grew to big for my small heart is you

[Gayoon]I'll be missing you every time
And I will pray for you every night

Even though I try to fool myself like it was nothing
My painful heart shakes without me knowing, Nothing is everything

playing in my head: 4Minute - Cool And Natural

HUH!

2010-10-27T02:06:00.002+08:00

Omg, i think i'm in love. O_O

Especially Kim Hyun Ah. *drools*

playing in my head: 4 Minute - Huh

DAMN.

2010-10-25T11:07:00.002+08:00

*wolf whistles*

playing in my head: 4 Minute - Huh

CRUSH?

2010-10-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

She's fucking hot. Nuff said.

playing in my head: Hyuna - Change

SIGH.

2010-10-23T03:07:00.003+08:00

My mind isn't waiting anymore.

But my heart still is.

playing in my head: Wonder Girls - A Sorry Heart

MALAYSIA. FAIL.

2010-10-16T18:06:00.004+08:00

I came across these pics on Facebook depicting a conversation between a Mitsubishi Evo X and a Proton Impian, which is the Waja's replacement. Kudos to the creator! Whoever you are, you have one super sense of humor! *SALUTES!!* :D

Malaysia MEMANG Boleh........................blah.

playing in my head: HyunA - Change

TO THE ONE I LOVE

2010-10-10T01:52:00.009+08:00

On the 26th of February 2009, you rolled into my life.

From then on, i was never the same person.

You taught me to love, you taught me to care.

You changed everything that i expected.

You never once made me cry.

Instead you brought me infinite joy.

We've gone through thick and thin.

Tears and laughter.

You brought me to places i never dreamed i would ever go.

You stole my heart the minute i laid eyes on you.

I remember the ecstasy i felt when i first touched you.

And i still do, everyday.

You are the love of my life.

And you were the one thing that i will never let go ever.

My Baby Wasabi.

I know by now that half my readers are just about as ready to kill me as they read that last line. But hey, i really DO love my baby Wasabi. After everything i've been through, he's still beside me. I know, he's a car but have you ever felt that connection with your own car?

I remember driving back one night from Melaka. And i didn't realize i was running low on gas until i got just quarter of the journey back. I was panicked that time and i kept checking the petrol meter. To make matters worse, i was supposed to stop by Port Dickson but i made a wrong turn and ended up in a village, like literally a village. I didn't see a petrol station anywhere i turned. I remembered being so close to tears. It was the first time that i've come that close to being stuck in the middle of nowhere without any petrol and no signal line on my phone to call for help.

I know this is gonna sound crazy, but i kept talking to Wasabi, telling him to hang in there with what little petrol he had left. For more than an hour, he ran on that tiny blinking bar of petrol and all this time i had my aircond and stereo running. I dunno how that was possible but i believe he has some sort of a soul that i've connected to. And that makes me love him all the more. I know it's cheesy but hey, what the heck. :)

This post is dedicated to my Baby Wasabi. Pictures of the day i first got him and his amazing transformation since the day i met him.

Baby as a stock car.

One of his only photos with him being stock.

This was taken on the 27th of February 2009, the day after i got him.

His very first modifications.

A full BMW M5 bodykit and a full set of custom vinyls.

This was taken about a month after i got him, 23rd March 2009.

Added more vinyls and eyelids.

This was done around October of 2009.

He had his first LEDs put into his door handles.

And also his first set of 15" WORK sports rims.

Chose these because they were the closest looking rims to the BMW ones i was looking for.

His first climb up to Genting with ZUZ Society.

And then, there was the addition of the custom vented hood to complete the look.

This is dated 20th November 2009.

Additions of 3M carbon look stickers to his vents. Which didn't last long.

Experiments done to his vents. This was one of the failed attempts.

This was a shot of him in early December 2009.

But he didn't stay this way for long.

I removed all his vinyls and added a full set of LED underglows.

His final look on the 19th December 2009, ready for the Kismas Autoshow.

He didn't change that much in 2010 because of time constraints but i DID give him a M5 vent which completed about 80% of his look.

All he needed now was to be lowered and given Angel Eyes.

Which i did.

And i also changed all his LEDs to white to match his overall look.

My most recent picture of my handsome boy.

You've seen how much Wasabi has grown and changed. His transformation doesn't end here though. There will be more for an upcoming autoshow hosted by Segi College on the 31st of October. Checked back here to see updated pics of him then.

See you next time readers! :)

playing in my head: Static Revenger - I Like That

APPETIZER?

2010-09-25T11:53:00.001+08:00

Yes i know, it's been another long while since my last post.

Here's a pic to prepare you for my next post. :)

playing in my head: The Maine - Into Your Arms

IT'S BEEN A WHILE..

2010-09-08T19:58:00.005+08:00

First of all, sorry for the lack of updates.

I've been pretty busy lately with a lot of college assignments as well as social activities.

Here's a few pictures of what's been happening recently. It's not much but i'm a lil' too tired to blog about it all.

A Final Pursuit outing to Maison.

Trip up to Genting with some friends. :)

But what's been keeping me away the most is my emotions.

I've loved and lost. It's a shitty feeling. No, trust me, it is. And it's soooo not easy getting over it. Even up till now i still do have my emo moments.

Guess that's what happens when you open your heart for the first time.

playing in my head: Usher - DJ Got Us Falling In Love Again

A RANDOM OUTING

2010-08-04T11:55:00.013+08:00

This post is as the title says, a random outing.

i-City.

Yes, there's a piece of paper in my ice cream. -___-"

See?

Pan Mee at Connaught.

Dim Sum also at Connaught.

playing in my head: Backstreet Boys - Shape Of My Heart